Real life lights....

I saw christmas lights light up the sky flashing and colorful lighting up the town like glittering snow flakes when winters first bound so bright and colorful to the beat of life looking at a persons face when they drive by the flashing the smiles to awe of amazement to hope and glee that shine in their eyes its like they are making a deep wish so deep in thought and shock they just stop its like looking throw a glass window smiling cause you made another person happy....

whats an artistic soul?

I have an artistic soul painted with colors from blue to gold silver to pink and purples to a bold air brushed and polished and toned to a blend my artistic soul brings it all to a bend in time and space where colors unite with a star light rhythm a far but bright built with colors spiraling around in sync and rhythmic with blends of sound like a new heart beat patting to life tell me what is an artistic soul is it like mine? 

You'll never see me again!!!

You'll never see me again if u say good bye this is your last chance to change your mind I can't hold on the bloody tears burning up my eyes the blood pounding against my skull from the screaming that you want me gone because you put him before your own flesh and blood do you not love me anymore I protected you when he pushed you I was going to get rid of him for hurting you and now your hurting me you want me to write it in my blood I love you will that tell you I care you say I stress you out your giving me a mental break down I would rather die then lose you or my mother your tearing me to pieces why don't you love me you've been trying to have a child and you keep miscarrying so I offered to carry for you you turn your nose up because he says thats gross another close minded person if that doesn't show I care what does? I remember we use to do so many things together now it's all about you because I don't have a job what is money that important to you? you want me gone? fine but if you let me go I will never come back again I'll kill myself cause I can't deal with you hurting me over and over again how dare you say I have no daughter you didn't want to help me when I had her you wouldn't even hold her you don't want me around fine by all means I'll ask mom to check me into the hospital for mental help..... not like you care? leave me alone to die alone not like you care.

In-laws

Have you ever had a family member want you gone because there partner don't want you around  like your not even blood have you ever had your sister stand in front of you and tell you, you have no child because the child doesn't live with you that your kid doesn't exist that hurt but she doesn't see me cry over it but she will never hear me cry I try to put on a mask to be a strong big sister to her it cuts me deep the thought that her partner has that much pull on her its like I could lose her forever her partner is tearing my family apart making my mother choose which daughter she wants around more I can't believe my mother told me to call my cousin so I could go stay with her it's like she doesn't want me anymore cause I can't get a job and keep it I try my best to do what I can I am trying to get my social security and help out but I can't do a lot I forget to turn off the stove or I forget to go to work I can't remember a lot of things but I will remember the day I lose my family over a partner my sister chooses to be with I'm scared terrified that I will be alone forever! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...................I hate my life my sisters boyfriends gonna tear my family apart with his bullshit he doesnt want me around fuck why doesnt he just kill me if Im so worthless they (my sister and her boyfriend) say that I dont cry over this shit like it doesnt hurt me it fucking kills me just becuz I dont cry infront of them doesnt mean I dont have feelings you knw its like they are contantly cutting me with dual knifes razor blades daggers swords every cut hurts it leaves a scar you knw like when she said I didnt care that she miscarried I offered to carry a child for her doesnt that say I care! I watch her everyday look at his son I see her pain everytime she miscarries but she doesnt see that it hurts me too you knw I dont like seeing her in pain but she doesnt see that I worry that I care that I step down to him when he pushed her I came to help her I wanted to call the police she wouldnt let me! doesnt that show I care! she rips my heart out when she says you dont have a kid because she doesnt live with me! wtf I have a kid yes I dont have her because I tried to protect her from drugs rapest and nasty houses so where was a bad mother I tried my best to protect her! my stomach turns like Im gonna be sick the thought of losing her cause she says that she wants me gone too its cutting me deeper then you knw us she really going to let me go like this is she gonna let him force my mother to choose which daughter she wants around more! its like my voice isnt heard!

I never want to lose u.....

I have a pain in my stomach where the pain settled from losing you why did u leave me I felt so lonely when u went away my eyes filled with bloody tears tears from the pain of losing u I cried so hard my eyes burned with pain my stomach turned 

creative writting stories

Once there was a girl small but cute face and misunderstood her name is Miku. She walks the school halls holding her books tight looking down at the floor as she walks to her locker and switching her books out biology class is next . she looks in her locker at the pictures that she has hanging one of her best friend 2 of her favorite stars and one of a boy shes secretly has a crush on. She stares at his picture asking herself how to approach you and get your attention. She lets out a deep sigh and then she shuts the locker and heads to class. Walking the halls she goes to turn in the door and runs right into Malikes' chest backing up in shock she sutters before glancing at him blushing hard. "Excuse me please" Malike steps aside and apologizes smiling at her. Miku sits down in her seat taking out her pencil and note book before she opens her biology book. She starts to draw in her note book a Picture on a small cartoon character. Glancing up every now and then at the girl in the front row of the class.